Not meant to make you cry or feel badly at all, and I’m glad you turned it around to positive, because it truly was my intentions. I think a lot of togs make the same honest mistake when starting out. They jump in too soon and find themselves confused without a real direction. It happens when you are supposed to be experimenting and learning but chose to add the extra pressure of shooting for others instead of just for yourself.
Just remember, during this process to turn off your competition, and any togs that you admire, and try to look at your work as a stranger would see it. Separate yourself from the shots, take off your mommy goggles, and turn on the critical thinking. Its hard but not impossible, and I think you will be very happy with the end outcome. I’ll try to be here, I’m curious to find out what your photography is really like