You have any medicine allergies? If not, maybe 0.5 mg of clonazepam will help… or even a mild SSRI, although they have a longer half-life and require some time to reach therapeutic levels.
You need to ‘chillax’ as my 8-yr-old daughter would say. You’re young, and you have a wealth of opportunities to look forward to with other skills you must have learned in school. Plus, no great photographer sprung into being overnight.
Have faith. It’s gonna be ok. 🙂