Oh the excuses keep rolling in. You are hopeless. I am not angry, or even belittling you. I am offering you constructive criticism which seems to be what these forums are all about. Take it or leave it (I know you will leave it because you are just too good in your own eyes). Your arrogant attitude far out-shadows your photographic skills. I am not the first to say this and I am sure I won’t be the last. Open your mind to the fact that you are not as good as you think you are. Then you can grow and learn from it to become infinitely better. Trust me, there is a ton of potential for you but as of now you are average at best. Stop being so defensive and learn to be humble. Then maybe you can attain your goal of becoming a full time professional photographer.